Preparing for The Big Day:
My Appointment with The New Therapist

Preparing for The Big Day

Without psychotherapy I feel lost. I can’t tell up from down. It’s as if I’m in the middle of the ocean without a life jacket. And that’s terrible because everyone knows I can’t swim! I’m flailing about, trying to stay afloat. But the harder I try, the faster I sink. It’s awful, just awful.

I’ve been without a therapist for a couple of months now. This is because my previous therapist, of 13 years {give or take}, closed her practice. It’s been tough. But finally, my appointment with the new therapist is coming up. And I’m stressing out about it – like majorly!

I’ve been looking forward to this day for weeks! And I’ve been determined to go into this with a positive outlook. But suddenly my mind is swirling with negativity. I mean, honestly, so much could go wrong.

Let’s start with first impressions. There’s no denying that they are huge. We all judge one another within seconds of meeting. And I’m sorry, I don’t think mental health professionals are immune to this. So yes, I’ve been carefully planning my outfit for “The Big Day.” There’s no question about it, I have to look my best!

Second, & this should probably be first but, I’m in a state. . . we may not mesh. There’s a real possibility that we just may not work well together. I thought I was prepared for this. But after going so long without a therapist, I’m just not sure. I can feel myself putting a lot of pressure on this & it’s concerning me. I would normally talk to my therapist about this type of thing but. . .

Third, I hope she doesn’t plan on wasting whole sessions with me filling her in on my past. That will come in time. I have real life shit that needs to be dealt with today. . . that’s happening today, in real-time. I don’t have time for that nonsense. Okay, it’s not nonsense. But I have pressing matters that need addressing. Like how my circadian rhythm is stuck in a rut. And how even the smallest of transitions are so damn difficult for me. And do I have ADD or is it cognitive impairment, yet another symptom of bipolar disorder?

This poor therapist. I actually feel kind of bad for her. She has no idea what she’s getting herself into to, does she? You’re probably getting a sense of why it’s good for me to be in therapy. Unfortunately this is only a small glimpse of the places my mind is capable of taking me.

I’ve also been reading about all the different bipolar-specific therapies. Some of them sound amazing. But the likelihood of me finding a therapist who a} specializes in them in my area, b} is also in my healthcare network, & c} I also vibe with is slim. So for now, I’m just going to do the next right thing. And that is. . .  take some deep breaths, pick out the perfect outfit, & enter that office like it’s meant to be!

Have any advice to calm my neurotic mind? How did you feel before meeting your new therapist?

Appreciate the Little & Enjoy the Journey!

Krista-lee-Pfeiffer

Preparing for The Big Day

4 Comments

  1. Frank wright

    Hey, just wanted to say thank you for all of the amazing information that you post on G+. You are gonna be fine, the therapist is gonna love you! Just be your amazing self, don’t change, you are incredible and you are actually gonna be therapeutic for the therapist! Take a deep breath, and don’t worry, remember you and the therapist are both human, both in need of human kindness, respect, and an occasional smile. As long there is a exchange of these between the 2 of you, everything will be fine. Your gonna do great, I know it!!!!

    1. Thank you Frank. That’s very kind and thoughtful of you to say. I’ll try to keep these tips in mind! Thank you for reading my blog and for your support on Google+. And thanks again for sharing your beautiful poems on my blog!

      Take care and have a great weekend!
      -Krista

    1. Lol. Thanks for the support Sandra! I’m not going to buy a new outfit. I’m just going to work with what I have. But I like the way you think! The appointment is later on today! Fingers crossed! If she only knew how much pressure I was putting on this… she would have canceled already! Lol

      Have a great week!
      -Krista

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